their high school principal
told me I couldn’t teach
poetry with
profanity
so I asked my students,
“Raise your hand if you’ve heard of the
Holocaust.”
in unison, their arms rose up like poisonous gas
then
straightened out like an SS infantry
“Okay. Please put your hands
down.
Now raise your hand if you’ve heard of the Rwandan genocide.”
blank
stares mixed with curious ignorance
a quivering hand out of the
crowd
half-way raised, like a lone survivor
struggling to stand up in
Kigali
“Luz, are you sure about that?”
“No.”
“That’s what I
thought.”

“Carlos—what’s genocide?”

they won’t let you hear the truth at school
if that person says
“fuck”
can’t even talk about “fuck”
even though a third of your senior
class
is pregnant.

I can’t teach an 18-year-old girl in a public school
how to use a condom
that will save her life
and that of the orphan she will be forced
to give
to the foster care system—
“Carlos, how many 13-year-olds do you know that
are HIV-positive?”

“Honestly, none. But I do visit a shelter every Monday and talk with
six
12-year-old girls with diagnosed AIDS.”
while 4th graders three blocks away
give little boys blowjobs during recess
I met an 11-year-old gang member in
the Bronx who carries
a semi-automatic weapon to study hall so he can make it
home
and you want me to censor my language

“Carlos, what’s genocide?”

your books leave out Emmett Till and Medgar Evers
call themselves “World
History” and don’t mention
King Leopold or diamond mines
call themselves
“Politics in the Modern World”
and don’t mention Apartheid

“Carlos, what’s genocide?”

you wonder why children hide in adult bodies
lie under light-color-eyed
contact lenses
learn to fetishize the size of their asses
and
simultaneously hate their lips
my students thought Che Guevara was a
rapper
from East Harlem
still think my Mumia t-shirt is of Bob
Marley
how can literacy not include Phyllis Wheatley?
schools were built
in the shadows of ghosts
filtered through incest and grinding teeth
molded
under veils of extravagant ritual

“Carlos, what’s genocide?”

“Roselyn, how old was she? Cuántos años tuvo tu madre cuando se murió?”

“My mother had 32 years when she died. Ella era bellísima.”

…what’s genocide?

they’ve moved from sterilizing “Boriqua” women
injecting indigenous
sisters with Hepatitis B,
now they just kill mothers with silent
poison
stain their loyalty and love into veins and suffocate them

…what’s genocide?

Ridwan’s father hung himself
in the box because he thought his son
was
ashamed of him

…what’s genocide?

Maureen’s mother gave her
skin lightening cream
the day before she
started the 6th grade

…what’s genocide?

she carves straight lines into her
beautiful brown thighs so she can
remember
what it feels like to heal

…what’s genocide?
…what’s genocide?

“Carlos, what’s genocide?”

“Luz, this…
this right here…

is genocide.”

Astu Mengesha – stay down blaze up